When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Daddy, I miss you...

This is so hard...

Will I ever be able to get through this?

All my fishes are dying...

Only two left.

Is this a sign?

going back to crescent last night for campfire was really nostalgic.

though i wasnt really in the right mood, delta's retardness didnt failnever fails to make me smile / laugh...

sorry if i ruined the happy atmosphere at one point, i tried to hold back, but i really couldnt.

somehow, i'm really wishing to have delta around with me, right now....

Kor couldnt attend his Passing Out Parade (POP) cause he missed his rehearsals...

I'm feeling really upset for him.

Imagine having your whole platoon marching off together for the parade, while you book out straight from camp alone.

I wish I knew what to do to make him feel better...

I so badly want the whole world to know how proud I am of my brother, who is amongst the 6 best cadets in his platoon.

Love you so much kor...

Another sleepless night...

*Do not highlight the following if you're afraid of spiritual stuff.*

Yesterday was the seventh day daddy passed away.

According to the belief, daddy would come home.

And yes, he did.

Honestly, I was really scared. I could hardly sleep.

But somehow, the fear faded away after a long while.

I felt cold air around me, I could feel daddy around.

My grandma, who slept with me in the same room, said that she heard a really loud *kiss*.

Daddy kissed me, yes, i think he really did.

The food left on the table for him also shifted a little.

I'm pretty sure, daddy came back...

Woke up to a really sweet message this morning...

"Flower gleam and glow

Let your power shine

Make the clock reverse

Bring back what once was mine

Heal what has been hurt

Change the fate designed

Save what has been lost

Bring back what once was mine

What once was mine

I would sing it to you if I am beside you(:

May it heal your pain."

You may not see this, but thanks Keith...

"treasure your loved ones"

that's what i've mentioned in my previous post, but no, i've failed to do so.

it only made me realise how important you really are to me, when you're gone.

but, it's too late.

there are way too many words left unspoken.

you once asked, "what's the impression you have of me as your father."

annoyed, i shrugged my shoulders and turned away.

but daddy, you're a wonderful daddy, who has always been there.

you dont show it, but i know, you care.

things that you do sometimes upsets me, but i know, you've always had my interests at heart.

i'm sorry that i've never reciprocrated the same amount of love you've showered on me.

right now, i so badly want to tell the world how proud i am for having a daddy like you.

forgive me, for being such a lousy daughter...

a daughter who stays out late on purpose, just to avoid staying home alone with you.

a daughter who fails to have dinner with you often.

a daughter who gives you the cold shoulder.

a daughter who took you for granted.

a daughter who never really cared about how you felt.

a daughter who brushes you away whenever you try to spend time with her.

a daughter who blocks you on MSN, so as to avoid conversations with you.

a daughter who does nothing but to criticise and complain about you.

a daughter who only expects you to give, but does nothing in return.

but daddy, please dont take whatever i've done or said to heart.

i just want you to know that, i love you, and i really really do.

make your way peacefully to the whole new world you're about to enter.

leave without any worries, stay happy.

mummy, kor and i will stay strong, keeping you deep in our hearts always.

we'll all reunite again someday...