my head hurts...

currently, temp = 39.0 degrees.

i'm hoping that i'll fall really sick that i'll end up in the hospital, so i dont have to face all this shit going on at home.

you dont f***ing care how unwell i was.

all you do is to keep pushing me.

what's the point of you shouting at me, seriously.

as much as i dont want to be involved, do i look like i've a choice?

i'll never forget what you said, "i dont care if you hate me... dont try to be smart here, you better stay out of this."

it was a simple request made, but you'd rather not agree to it and make me hate you.

as much as i dont want to hate anyone, last night i finally saw the importance of me to you as your daughter.

it doesnt matter anymore. nothing does.

i feel ashamed to address you as my dad.

my brother took leave from camp the moment he realised that something was wrong.

i didnt want to tell him anything, but he called and he could tell.

for that, he has to book out a day later than his other platoonmates.

there's nothing i can do that's ever right.

i promised him to stay strong, but in the end, i'm still causing more problems.

when will i ever stop being so useless.

i honestly didnt know who to turn to last night, but you were there.

it meant a lot, thanks joe...