Hmmm... I think I'm starting to think quite a lot nowadays.

Random questions just pop out in my head, and I'll keep thinking about it.

Yesterday I was thinking to myself, why do we need a partner in our lives?

What's the purpose of getting a boyfriend / girlfriend now?

To have someone to depend on?

To have someone who'll be committed to you?

To have someone to love you?

What's the difference between a partner and a friend?

Isn't it quite selfish then, to be in a relationship for reasons like these?

Being in a relationship can bring you all the happiness in the world.

The feeling of being appreciated, loved and cared for is a feeling that everyone longs for.

But when a relationship doesnt work out, how much sadness and heartache will one have to go through?

Then again, not all relationships dont work out.

But, here comes another question.

When the day that you should part, who'd you rather be the one to leave first?

Would it be selfish to want to leave before your partner, so that you wouldnt have to go through the heartache of being left alone?

All these came to mind as I thought of Daddy and Mummy.

I really dont know what I'd do if I were in Mummy's shoes...

Would you rather be with someone whom you love or to be with someone who loves you?

If you'd choose to be with someone you love and who loves you also, how then would you know if he/she would forever remain so true to you?

"Love is always a gamble." I cant agree more.

My life now mainly revolves around school, touch rug, tuition, study. And it sucks so bad. I feel that I don't have time to do my own stuff (like blog) or even to complete my tutorials on time, neither do I have time for my friends. I miss Delta:/

Had a really bad weekend two weeks ago. My mum broke down so badly, she locked herself in her room, refusing to talk to me. I felt so lost, so helpless. I had no choice but to call my brother back from his poly camp. He used his spare key to open my mum's door. I saw my mum crying so badly. The reason being, I have no time for her and she feels so alone. I cried.

I'm so drained from school that at times when I return home, I just shower, have dinner and head straight to bed. Never did I notice my mum sitting there waiting for me to talk to her. Never did realise how much I've neglected her...

Ever since daddy left, mummy has been rather paranoid about the slightest things that happen. And I've failed to do my part to take away all her fears:/ It's time

I learnt to do so...

I'm not doing too well at school, I'm unable to cope with the amount of homework that's piling up as the days go by. With the exception of getting to see my friends, school sucks so bad...

Touch rug. The team has been performing well(: We've won every single match so far, drew one. But I didn't get to play in the last three, sprained my other ankle:/ Hopefully it recovers by wed, I really want to play in the last three before the semis...

Hmmm... There isn't really anything else to blog about; that's my life for now:|